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I mostly post stuff related to Attack on Titan, Free!, Dishonored, Disney, SHINee, Big Bang, B1A4, Harry Potter, the Avengers, Sherlock, Supernatural and pretty much anything I find hilarious.
I am not a kind person. When people try to comfort me they tell me I’m nice and kind and thoughtful. But I’m not, I don’t have some inherent concern for others or empathy that lets me see things their way. I don’t have any kind of social instinct whatsoever.
Kindness is an effort, maybe it’s an effort I go to as often as I can as many days as i can but it’s never something that I just am. The kindness’ I offer aren’t spontaneous, they’re canned. How I percieve kind people, how I percieve empathetic people to act are just the basis for what I do in similar sitatuions. I guess some people are foolish enough to mistake me for the real thing, but when I meet kind people, when I meet empathetic people, the difference between us is obvious.
I don’t acknowledge my autism or talk about it because I hate the idea of being a way simply because I am, because I hate the idea that i can’t just ignore it and be something else. But I’ve tried that for a decade now, and the best i can be is like something else. Empathy doesn’t come naturally to me, nothing social is natural to me, I don’t unwind, I don’t be myself, I just be whatever seems best, based on my warped perceptions And that means I hurt people, that means I make bad impressions by trying to force what can’t come naturally.
All that I am, all that I do is work within the limits of emulating what I’ve seen. Frankly on my own I’m not anything, trying to just be myself hasn’t produced anything. I’m not a good person, I’ve just met good people. I’m not a kind person, I just try to be.
'S been a while since Kisa's last lookbook, so…
|aniki where u at|
im where all the bitches at
|KEIBBUBUUU!!!!!! how's it going aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa I haven't talked to you in a long ass while I'm sowwyy...|
SENPAI BABY <3 I’m gut gut, getting done with the last of my exams for this school year HNNNGH. And you how are you I MISS YOU OKAY
Heroines - more painting practice with gouache & acrylic gouache
Lemony Snicket (via hourae) —
I love tags it’s like muttering under your breath on the internet
- lypophrenia: a feeling of sadness seemingly without a cause
- drapetomania: an overwhelming urge to run away
- escapism: a mental desire to retreat from unpleasant realities through fantasy
- wanderlust: a desire to travel, to understand one’s very existence
- dysania: the state of finding it difficult to get out of bed in the morning
- sanctuary: a small safe place in a troubling world
- metathesiophobia: fear of change
Been playing with this concept for a while.
I love this. So much.
this should be posted everywhere